Dear friend (True Narrative)

 It was around January 1, 2022 when i met her. It was on a random afternoon when a message from a person i didnt know popped. Without anything to do at that time, i replied. After replying, we started messaging each other back and forth. Then there i learned she was a girl from India. She was around the same age as me but only a year younger. We share the same birth month and our birthdays were only a few days apart. After finding that out we both were shocked and excited, it was like destiny! The more we talked i found out she also loved to read. Then i shared my favorite authors, books and genres and so did she. from learning little things about each other, our friendship blossomed more. 

From then on we would always message each other almost every single day. She would tell me how her day went from school. She would tell me stories about events that happened. She would share her culture and her way of living and life in India. She would share with me her struggles, her past, her aspirations, dreams and ambitions. To her, i was her bestfriend and so did i to her. We even planned to visit each other someday and she told me that she would invite me to her wedding when she gets married. And then 2023 came.That had marked our 1 year of friendship. And i never would have thought that year would also be the end.    

That year due to me struggling to cope with my mental health i started to become more distant. I didnt have enough will to talk or interact with anyone and i started to isolate myself more and more. Her messages kept coming but i could barely reply. From messaging each other everyday it turned to us barely talking to one another, and suddenly our friendship came to an abrupt end. After that there are still days that i think about her. I wish i could have told her that i was struggling, how i wasnt being myself and maybe she could have understand, maybe we would still be best of friends right ow and how i should not have pushed her awa. If there was a chance to rekindle our friendship i would take it, i would do it. I miss you. Im sorry.  

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